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Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
1:03 pm	dun dun dun just so you all know. i'm alive...and i'm in phoenix. and yeah, thats about all there is to it. maybe i'll get on here and update more later...as for now...i'm not Current Mood: confused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
10:43 pm	Photobucket This is a test post from Photobucket.com (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
11:39 pm	hhmmm....welll hemm.... hrmmm.. herm. interesting well i'm posting. updating i think i'm faling chemistry. just so all of you know. i'm doing well i'm just yes. Current Mood: confused Current Music: my december (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
6:40 pm	a few months gone by i'm still alive i don't think i forgot about LJ, i think i just got distracted... oh well but i'm back, at least for a week or so, before my brain does its usual... don't ask me what it is, but it's something (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 5th, 2004
2:10 pm	gross i'm eating mcdonalds for the millionth day in a row. gross. i feel gross. yes, gross. okay off to pack, i was just updating so everyone knows i feel gross. stupid chicken nuggets that i don't even like that taste soo good. what am i saying. if i don't like them, how do they taste good? i donno. the random rambling of my brain...now you all know what it is like in there. fucked up!! see you all sunday or monday or tuesday!! hooray for nascar Current Mood: gross Current Music: my stomach digesting grossness, and me singing the killers (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 4th, 2004
10:58 pm	what...wait...why... if only things weren't so complicated i would probably be smiling right now. yes i'm updating again. well at least attempting to. i'm not sure what to say except that everything is so crazy right now. i just want to cry. in fact, that's all i did for over an hour yesterday. wow, what kind of loser am i. right now i'm sitting on nate's computer typing this up because mine is unplugged. i'm contemplating what to do. what to say. how to handle everything. everything that doesn't make sense. and yes, it is a lot. i missed practice today for the first time, so i feel kind of like shit. but that is the reason why i missed practice so i guess i feel even more so like shit. tuesdays, thursdays, and various saturdays are my favorite days of the week. why? because those are the days that i'm in my spandex and cleats, running and throwing, being active and participating in something that i have fallen in love with - rugby. also i get to see all the girls. and well...yeah. there is another reason, i just can't put it into words. why you ask...because it is impossible. i've always believed that everything is possible, but right now, things are looking pretty impossible. this whole being down and confused thing is started to get to me. thank goodness i'm going home this weekend to see my family, some out-of-state friends, and the nascar races. maybe it will help clear my mind, and come monday i will have a much better understanding. that is what i am hoping. until then, i remain lost within myself searching for a way out. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: the beautiful sound of silence (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 1st, 2004
11:12 am	lo siento okay okay i'm updating. sorry it has taken a  bazillion years. but i have been lazy. not physically lazy, but lazy in the sense of updating. eh. oh well. so anyways yeah this was halloween weekend. fun stuff. yeah. extremely fun stuff. well school is just well school and i've decided i like college minus the part about having to do stuff for my classes. i almost don't even mind going to most of them. it is the work for them that i have decided to not do! so yeah dorm's = good, friends = good, rugby = good, class = eh, work = bullshit. but i'm starting to get back on track. i hope. hm...i'm sitting here staring at the screen and realizing how tired i really am. i think i'm missing chem lecture today, even though i was going to go. i'm kind of tired. last night was shit then fun then tiredness. 9:27- i wake up and shouldn't have, so i fuck around on my computer, look at my chem lab and realize i'm don't know what i'm doing. watch some pregame f-ball stuff. look up the steelers/patriots stats. wait around some more. 11 - eagles game on the tele. i meander up to brendan's room in an attempt to do more homework, yeah i wound up watching f-ball. donno what time - steelers/pats game starts. and now i know kind of how to do my damn lab report. funny how that works. oh well. so yeah i'm semi-glued to the TV watching the steelers score 3 touchdowns in 3min and 33 seconds against the patriots and their 21 game winning streak...haha that exists no more. and the eagles are the only undefeated team left, until next weekend. hahaha. and that will be over then. i hope. then i work onthe damn lab til at least 9 o fucking clock. ugh. blah. gross. then i drive back and forth between nate,atal, jason, and mitchs house like 5 times w/ a minimum of 7 people in my car and poor yahia in the trunk. hehehe plus i have no drivers license due to the fact that it is currently in anna's possession. so yeah. getting pulled over would be a bad thing... so we go to party , i leave to come finish lab report. yes i am a loser. i go back pick them up bring them back go back to drop off my car come back and finally go to bed around 3 ish...8 am chem lab this morning. but i woke up before 730. i think the damn insomnia is coming back. blah. okay i have to go help someone w/ the stupid lab that i hate. so maybe i'll come update some more later. okay dokay... hasta pastas. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: no music. i hear click click click of keys (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
3:04 pm	okay well yeah, i never update cuz i'm the worst journal keeper ever. and plus no one ever responds. no one except hairy dan and chris kalilung. i know i spelled it wrong. so yeah. that is all. Current Mood: energetic (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
6:58 pm	my weekend at home well, my weekend at home was fun. i spent a lot of it w/ my family and with kerry. it was really sad. when i walked in the door (my parents didn't know when i was going to be home, just some time that day) my mom walked from the kitchen like she hadn't seen me in years and started bawling as she wrapped her arms around my neck. then my sister came and latched onto me and cried. my poor daddy stood in the kitchen teary-eyed staring out the window so that no one coud see his reddening eyes. it was one of those homecoming moments that you only really dream about or see in the movies. it was awesome except for the fact that i wasn't quite sure what to do. i embraced my mom and sister. went through the house saying hello's- grandma, pappy, and then my brother said HI...with the tone of voice, im right here say hi to me. i think his feelings were hurt cuz i said hi to him last. but that makes me feel good because now i know he really cares. my daddy had a poker parety. i sat and played a hand or two w/ the guys showing off my poker skills...(haha, yeah right). but it was fun. i didn't lose so that was exciting. i went to zia w/ kerry on sat. night and bought the atreyu cd, they are not bad. she burned me the killers cd. that was fun too cuz i like that cd. i really like them in general which is exciting in itself. we drove through water puddles cuz it rained  A LOT. it was nice. i really like the rain. wow, as i sit here thinking about what i'm writing...i have decided that i sound like a 2 year old. trying to make whole sentences...or a 7 year old writing a paper. oh well i saw my other family this weekend. that was good. i was standing outside, jayce took one look at me and ran to me w/ outstretched arms. once i picked him up he laid his head on my shoulder and that is where is stayed for 5 minutes. i just started crying because i didn't think that they would remember me. julia wasn't sure what to do, but she knew who i was. once i sat down inside she came and took her place on my lap, the same place it had always been.so i played some hide-and-seek, and just hung out like old times. it was fun. i really missed those kids. i got a ride home w/ chris kalelong...i have no idea how to spell that...and this guy jp who was cool. we had so much stuff we had to rearrange the car. hehee. oh well. i'm going to stop blessing you all w/ my ramblings...i'm sure that you no longer want to read it anyways... Current Mood: content Current Music: vikings eagles game (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 16th, 2004
8:47 pm	me and steph me and steph recently had a conversation about wiping. that is right wiping... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
7:32 pm	3 times in 1 week i've decided that i need to start updating more. this week is going good. this will be the third one...i think. well, today i do believe that i failed my first of 3 math exams. hm...what to do? i believe that i'm going to start going to tutoring to get help since my calculus 1 class was pointless and taught me nothing of the sort. stupid walter or w/e his name was that didn't know how to teach. oh well. so yeah...tutoring. i feel kinda dumb since i'm supposed to be good at math, really like math, and have never gone to tutoring for anything in my whole life. yeah. i want to be an engineer. plus, i feel bad asking joe for help all the time. although, he is good at math, i don't want to drive poor b/f insane with math questions. so yeah. math tutoring it is. unless someone that is really good at calc 2 would like to tutor me. just kidding. i wouldn't put any of you through that. lets see what else. oh yes, i leave for home tomorrow. my best friend boobie is coming to get me. i'm so excited. i haven't seen her in forever. and she is making me drive home because everywhere we ever went together i drove cuz i like to drive. plus i don't really like not having a vehicle when i go somewhere. i haven't driven in a month. it's crazy. i feel so weird. i'm almost afraid to drive, but i miss it so much. and i miss my car. i think i'm more excited to see my car and my Bobo (bojangles my dog) than to see my actual family. i don't want to go home. it's going to be weird. and not feel like home. my sister and her friends have taken over my room since i've been gone. my brother has tried to tell me that they moved my bed into the detach for storage and turned my room into a weight room. i wouldn't put it past my dad and him, but i don't think my mom would allow it. if i know her nothing in my room would be touched if she could help it. i miss my bed though, it's somewhat big and really comfy. except it won't be my bed. my comforter is here in tucson. i think i'm going to feel like a stranger. people say that it doesn't feel like home. besides, i'm used to staying up late hours on the weekends hanging out w/ the boys playing video games and poker, going to bed when i want, waking up when i want rather than before 8 am on saturdays and sundays, and just coming home when i want. it will be weird to be under their roof again. i don't mind following their rules, it will just be weird, something i'm not used to. eh...oh well. i guess that is part of the college life. not wanting to go home. okay...on to a new subject because thinking about home and the fact that i don't want to go makes me feel really bad... my classes are okay i do think that by the end of my trad class (languages and cultures of east asia -LCEA) i'm going to be racist. the class is interesting but the way they teach it is ridiculous. i'm going to go insane. it's like 3rd grade style. and they are trying to teach me to read, write and even kind of speak chinese, asian, and japanese. wow. i can tell you a lot about each language though. but i really do not think that it is going to help me on my journey to becoming a successful engineer. honestly. some of the classes courses require you to take, i guess i could have taken a different one. but i didn't pay much attention. oh well okay now i am rambling so i think i'm going to be done with this post. especially since it's becoming more of a book than an update. so hasta pastas...maybe i'll be back tomorrow, or maybe i'll just let you all know how my weekend at home went... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
2:12 pm	i don't even know what day it is for the past...eh, brain hurts too bad to figure that one out, lets try this again since i woke up yesterday morning at 7 am i have acquired a total of about 1 hours worth of sleep since them. i'm fucking insane. actually just really tired and due to the fact that i procrastinate, it is my ouwn fault which i have fully accepted. maybe i'll sleep tonight. ha...i doubt it, but wonderful thing about wednesday class....don't start til 11. woo hoo so yeah, this week totally fucking sucks it is so busy but i'm not going to bitch about that now. because i'm just too tired to bitch, plus i just ate, and i was goin to sleep, but decided to do this instead. procrastinating again...a wonderful way to start off my 4-5 -6 or however many years i'm going to be here. i'm gong home next weekend since it will have been a month since i've seen my family. yeah, i guess my sister is still really upset about me moving out, but i'm not going to live with her or near her my whole life. so yeah. i'm not sure how to handle it. alright i'm going to check the mail. hopefully my stupid meds came today...blah. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: the constant whirring sound of the ac (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 13th, 2004
8:39 pm	update well, instead of doing my paper, i'm updating livejournal. hooray. i'm sorry i haven't updated in a while. i've been busy with school i guess. yes, i'm in college. wednesday it will be a month that i have lived here. holy cow it doesn't even feel like it has been anything near that long. and i still don't think that it has sunk in yet. i know it has for steph, but it hasn't for me. i can't figure out why. oh well, school is good. i've been really busy. especially this week, i have an oral report on my catapult due wed. math test thurs, and chem exam frid. maybe i should be doing homework instead of this. yeah, but i will later. i'm basically just writing this so that all my friends that i keep in touch with over this know i'm still alive. i have many stories to tell you, just not at this particular moment do i have the time to tell them. because i was supposed to post everything by 8 pm. it is currently 8:37 and i have successfully written the first line in my 4-6 page paper. what a procrastinator. i did other productful things instead tonight, and all the other times i was going to write it. like fri, saturday and sunday. ah...like stealing street signs instead, how juevenile, but it was fun. now i'm going to go, because i must assist stephanie in the kitchen. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: whatever stephanie is listening to (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
3:10 pm	steph and i we've come to the conclusion that we are unique. we are an aquired taste. you either love us or hate us. there is no in between that's all. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
3:30 pm	ah...finally moved in awe....great finally the college life. what...it doesn't feel like college. it definitely is yet to sink in. oh well. that's okay. i don't mind it too awful much. it will sink in eventually. my room is great. me and steph have the tightest room ever. and it is almost finished. we keep buying stuff. adding stuff and putting more stuff up. i think i have spent at least 500 dollars in the last 2 days. i bought my books = 336.00 holy shit. you know what i mean, and that is for everyclass but engl. and it's only the required ones. hahahaa. i will put more on here about our room later. i don't feel like typing anymore. plus i have to go to the bookstore for the 3rd time today in order to buy an adapter for my wireless keyboard and mouse that i spent 80.00 on today. hehehee...i better quit spending money. i'm going to be broke soon. oh well. i will have to find a job when my family left yesterday it was really sad. my dad gave me a 5 minute hug and was crying really hard and was like."you'll always be my little girl. don't forget that. i love you (he never says that he loves me) if anyone fucks with you i can be here in less than 3 hours and i will kill them" and he was crying and hugging me the whole time he was saying it. it was soo sad and i was crying too. my sister was really sad too. she was crying a lot. she slept in my bed at home last night, and before that she sat in my room getting her backpack ready for school the next morning. i'm going to miss her. i miss my family, but not a lot yet because it hasn't sunken in. it will and i will probably cry again, and call my mommy and daddy. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
2:42 pm	hehehee how sad is this Which Unwanted Sexual Gesture Are You? Made by the fine folks at daylighttwilight.com and i promise i will update soon Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: tedleoandthepharmicistTHEHIGHPART (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 12th, 2004
11:51 pm	agreeing w/ steph i don't know how to do what steph did...but i had to put this on here, and i didn't put the kansas one because i know more than 1/2 of these are true on both. my family and i are hicks... You Know You're From Missouri When... Everyone in your family has been on a "Float trip." "Vacation" means driving to Silver Dollar City, Worlds of Fun or Six Flags. Down south to you means Arkansas. The phrase, "I'm going to the Lake this weekend," can mean only one thing. You know what "Party Cove" is. (If you know where, you are a boating party animal) You think Missouri is pronounced with an "ah" at the end. You know in your heart that Mizzou can beat Nebraska in football. You think I-44 is spelled "foarty-foar." (St. Louis Only) You'll pay for your kids to go to college unless they want to go to KU. You know that Concordia is halfway between Kansas City and Columbia, and Columbia is halfway between St. Louis and Kansas City, and Warrenton outlet mall is halfway between Columbia and St. Louis. You can't think of anything better than sitting on the porch in the middle of the summer during a thunderstorm. You know that Harry S. Truman, Walt Disney and Mark Twain are all from Missouri. You know what "cow tipping" or "Possum Kicking" is. You think "frog gigging" should be an Olympic sport. You think Imo's is larger than Pizza Hut. You can tell the difference between a horse and a cow from a distance. You don't put too much effort into hairstyles due to wind and weather. There's a tornado warning and the whole town is outside watching for it. The local gas station sells live bait. Little smokies are something you serve on special occasions. All your radio preset buttons are country. You know enough to get your driving done early on Sundays before the Sunday drivers come out. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Missouri. Get Your Own "You Know You're From" Meme Here More cool things for your blog at Blogthings Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
9:27 pm	hahahaa Your LJ Perfect Date LJ Username Gender femalemaleumm, lemme check Mood happyhornysadangrynotalgicannoyedother Choose a random word Your Perfect Date suddenlyitsgone You have dinner at a bar Afterwards you steal the bat mobile for a joyride Your date asks you why you're undressing You say I love you Chance you will get lucky - 28% This fun quiz by akasha82 - Taken 104493 Times. </a> New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice! hahaha i guess i'm a lesbian after all (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 8th, 2004
7:17 pm	back in phoenix well. i got my new computer and i'm typing this on it at stephs because she has wireless internet!!! woohooo. yay. well i went to flagstaff and it was fun. i didn't really do much. i played horseshoes w/ my mom, brother, and derrick. me and my mom lost. then i played w/ derrick and  kicked his butt. hahaha... then i went and tried to play darts. that's right TRIED. do you know how hard that is. my first try throwing 3 darts i scored a whopping 9 points. wow. that got me far huh? oh well. then i had to cook all the kids dinner, but that was okay because my dad said he'd pay me! alright. well, now steph was like "are you hungry"  me - "no" steph - "well my parents are going to buy you sonic!" me - "okay i'm hungry" wow. the little things i tell you. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 6th, 2004
12:53 pm	good day Wow. today is a good day so far. 1. it's friday. 2. my family just left to go to munds park (somewhere up near flagstaff) for the weekend. 3. my dad is kicking scott and laura out today because we have all had enough of them. 4. my computer will hopefully come in today. 5. steph's parents went to the same park for the weekend. 6. my dad said i can go to the lake tomorrow. 7. i don't have to work all weekend. 8. only 12 more days. 9. i get coffee bean paid today. 10. i don't remember #10. 11. could be #10 - it's raining outside. woohoo what a good day. Current Mood: giddy (3 Comments |Comment on this)